And no, I don’t mean spoiling as in buying myself too many books. Though I do that too. What I mean is spoiling the end of books for myself.
I do this ALL THE TIME. Not just for books, but for movies and tv shows too. But, since this is a book blog, I’ll stick to the books. And I wish I felt awful, and would even try to change my habits, but I just can’t. Why do I actively spoil endings for myself, you may ask. Well, after some thought, and asking myself that same question, I have a few reasons for you. Three, to be exact.
1. I like to know things.
Heck, I need to know things. It’s a control issue. I don’t like going into anything blind: whether its my plans for the day, my weekend, even dinner! I like having everything laid out, in a list, on a calendar. Something. When stuff is in order, I feel so much better.
When it comes to books, I like knowing what I’m coming up against. Am I going to be angry? What if I’m crying? Am I going to be so engrossed that I need to make sure I have a solid four hours to read and not pick a day where I have an actual deadline or a shift at work? This determines if I’ll need a pillow to punch, a box of tissues, or my comfy pants on.
2. Knowing the ending will help me judge when I read the book.
Like I said above – I need to know how much time this will take. If I’m about to get totally sucked into a story, the last thing I need is to have to stop right in the middle because I have to go to work! It doesn’t bode well for me, ever. I’m always half in reality, half in my book. It leads to a half-minded Kayla, which doesn’t work so well when I’m dealing with patients. BUT, if I know that it’s not too engrossing, I can pick it up and put it down when I need to, and be completely satisfied in having to return a few hours later.
3. I have poor impulse control.
This one speaks for itself. I see a spoiler, I need to read it. I have zero self control when it comes to spoilers, even when I actually want to stay unspoiled. I just see the word and I’m like – I have to. I can’t even control it. Before I know it, I’ve clicked on the link, read the spoiler, and formed an opinion. And then refer to options 1 and 2. This whole impulse thing goes hand in hand with my habit of buying books even though I know I won’t read them any time soon, and that I have a million books already waiting for me.
Do you spoil books for yourself? Do you do it by choice or by some unknown force that drags you there? How do you feel about untagged spoilers?